day old chewing gum and un cried tears
mix together to make a temporary graveyard
of every doubt and insecurity
that has ever stuck inside my sticky mind
.
i can remember every mistake I’ve ever made
.
please take me back to pre k butterfly clips
and value village dresses
i’ll skin my knees on every blacktop
if it means my sticky mind will forget it all
every “you’re too loud”
and “god, she’s annoying”
.
make me malevolent
as I miss
how my mind
used to murmur
.
my sticky mind remembers my last life
and the one before that
but it can’t remember a single nice thing about me
.
let me grab the peanut butter and attempt to unstick the sticky, prickly thoughts ingrained in my brain
let me coax out every
“you’re worthless” or
“just quit”
forever gone
let me retrain my sticky mind to catch only pretty thoughts that fly by
let me plant a garden on top of every tombstone
or at the very least
a flower to absorb the sunlight
This reads like a jar of peanut butter and that makes absolutely no sense but yes basically this is very good I thoroughly enjoyed reading it
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